Jesy Nelson bravely reflected on her previous suicide attempt.
The former Little Mix singer, 29, left the group last December, citing personal reasons for her decision to quit the globally successful girl group after nearly a decade.
At the time, Jesy’s decision sent shockwaves among devastated fans – but they didn’t know the ins and outs of her struggles.
In a raw and honest new interview, Jesy shed light on her depression during her time on Little Mix, revealing that a week after her suicide attempt, she must have performed in front of cameras because the group was under a deadline for get their video clip shot.
Jesy opened up about her battle for mental health on Fearne Cotton’s Happy Place podcast.
The singer revealed that following her suicide attempt, her devastated mother begged her to leave the group for her own well-being.
But seven days later, Jesy was back in the studio and back on set to film the clip.
Jesy shared, “Well I just obviously remember the first time so obviously I overdosed. I went to the hospital and got a clip like a week after.
“And obviously my mom found out and she was clueless and she was like, ‘This is it, you don’t do that anymore.’ Because my mom is the kind of mother who thinks, ‘Jesus, we can’t. give nothing of what you do as long as you are happy.
“So she said, ‘No. It doesn’t happen anymore. I’m like I don’t put my foot down and you’ll be okay with it. “
“And obviously I didn’t know what to do at the time because it was also the early stages of Little Mix.”
Jesy had previously spoken about the dark period of his life in his BBC documentary Jesy Nelson: Odd One Out.
The singer went on to win a BAFTA for the revealing documentary that detailed her decline in mental health after years of endless trolling and social media abuse following her rise to fame.
After leaving Little Mix, Jesy revealed that during her time in the girl group she felt “miserable” and “frustrated” due to the fact that she was constantly being compared and compared to Perrie, Leigh-Anne and Jade.
Now that she’s about to launch her solo career, Jesy still feels her insecurities, but has found peace in the fact that she no longer has to check to see if she looks ‘great’ next to others. girls who she said always looked “thinner” than her. .
Speaking to Fearne, Jesy said, “I’m never going to sit down and lie and say to myself, oh, I’m so happy now, I have no insecurities because it’s an absolute lie.
“I still have my insecurities, I still have my struggles.
“I guess the thing I’m better at now is I see little things now when I do a music video, I don’t look at the camera and I think, oh my God I don’t have the looking as skinny as Jade, Anne and Perrie.
“And that’s what I did every day, and for the very first time, I did my music video and I enjoyed it. I absolutely loved it and I was like, this is the feeling I should have had all the time.
“Some people were not in favor of it, and some people are and I agree with it. Also, it wasn’t nice for Jade, Anne and Perrie to be there when I was so depressed they were living their dream and I wasn’t.
“I felt very miserable and trapped and I knew it was wrong.”
Luckily, Jesy feels happier than ever in her own skin and makes the kind of music she’s always dreamed of.
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